This week has been rough, and I’ve decided that a lot of why it was so hard is because I let it be.
I stepped in dog poop, flipped my peanut butter bagel onto my blanket, dented my parents’ car and the side of the house, had all my friends leave school for a few days for a basketball tournament (I don’t do sports but they all do), and I had yet another doctor’s appointment for my headache, which is something that always increases my emotional distress.
But, I let it change me. I let all these little things stack up in my heart and mind, weighing me down and holding me back from joy and peace I could have experienced. I even let myself project this string of bad events onto my future superstitiously, and I worried that all of my undertakings for the rest of the week would be tainted by this failure.
I didn’t have to let it change me, I could have let each event roll off of me and not let it leave its mark on my spirit. I didn’t have to dwell on these things, I could have set my mind on things that bring me joy and things that are eternal rather than these things that I won’t even remember by the time next week’s post comes around. And I certainly didn’t need to let it cause me to doubt my God’s promise that His mercies are new every morning and that he will provide for each day as it comes with daily bread.
But I did, and I have asked for forgiveness, and I have opened myself up to the work of the Holy Spirit to let the Lord change me from the inside out.
I don’t want to be the kind of person who gets thrown off by a little thing, or a few little things, or even something big (although I know I’m stuck with human nature). So I’m letting the Words of my God sink into my soul and heal the brokenness of my spirit.
My Father tells me through the apostle Paul: “For this light momentary affliction is preparing us for an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.”
Even as I write this I have lingering thoughts of worry about what could go wrong next week, but now I can take them captive in the name of Jesus Christ. Now I can choose to see life’s trials as light and momentary rather than something to give in to and let make its mark on me. I can do these this because of the ultimate and unquestionable authority of God and His words to me.
So, whether next week’s afflictions are mild or crippling, let’s keep our eyes fixed on the unseen, the eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, that we are being prepared for.