Big happenings this week, like super-big-woah-is-this-real-life type stuff.
I took my SAT test in June and it took like 5 weeks to get my score when it usually only takes 2 so you best believe I was up at 5am Wednesday morning refreshing the College Board website. Not as bad as my mom though, she was up at 4 trying to figure out my username and passcode to check and see if they had been released yet.
Sooooo… drumroll please…
I got a good score! But here’s the tea, I didn’t get the score that I had been hyping up in my head as the Number that would be my top goal. You know, the Number that would get me the biggest scholarship to Cedarville and mean that I didn’t have to take that soul-sucking test again.
But that’s okay, more than okay! The Number was my highest of high hopes but thankfully I kept telling myself that doing average was my goal. I took an ACT test today because I was already signed up for it but I never have to take the test again wooo! With the score I got I’m eligible for the next scholarship, which in and of itself is a cup overflowing with abundance and puts Cedarville back into the budget with money to spare!
So yeah, basically my life changed this week because as long as I keep a decent GPA (which is achievable with meh level effort) I not only get into my dream school but I also get a scholarship that kicks butt in the whole “college is freakin’ expensive and I’d rather not sell all my organs on the black market” area.
Two years. I have two years where my future is as clear and secure as it could possibly get and for the first time basically ever I’m not striving and straining towards something. The striving and straining, that had its season and its purpose. Being a dedicated student is hard enough and with the prospect of college on the horizon those who are motivated often work about 10x harder. And hard work pays off!
But now I get two years of rest. Two years of abundant blessings and constant reminders of His grace. Two years of living out the truth that Ephesians 3:20 says, “Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine according to His power that is at work within us.” Two years of seeking God to prepare and grow myself not academically, but spiritually through sanctification.
I believe that God has led me to this point, guided me to this quiet place, and offered me a new and different focus. Rather than building up my resume, I’m being told through the gentle whisper of answered prayer to “‘build these cities and make walls around them, and towers, gates, and bars, while the land is yet before us, because we have sought the Lord our God; we have sought Him, and he has given us rest on every side.’ So they built and prospered” (2 Chronicles 14:7).
Through the power of Christ in me I have sought the Lord and His glory through my work at school and now in His lovingkindness He has lifted that load and told me to build and prosper.
I carry a new load now. I am building cities of Christ-likeness surrounded by walls of God-centeredness, complete with towers of the fruits of the Spirit, gates of the Word of God inscribed on my heart, and bars of faith fortified with the unshakable confidence in the unseen God.
So yeah, I’ve got more to be thankful for in one day than I could express in all eternity. Good thing we’ve got an eternity after that, am I right?
(P.S. Scripture reference credits go to my mom who, in her reading of the day the same day I got my scores received this good Word for me from 2 Chronicles and shared it with me. Isn’t God awesome like that?!)